Monday, August 29, 2011

Problem Solved...






Today is a GREAT day.  Yesterday marked the 365th day I had to be separated.  Can you believe we were separated longer then we were married.  Tells a lot, huh?  But today is day 366…time to celebrate as, its time to file and drop him like there's no tomorrow!  Woo Hoo!

Time to move on to the next phase of life, and I couldn't be happier. 

I'm ready to start taking better care of ME.  For my entire career I've been taking care of others.  Providing nursing care to patients, comfort to families, and guidance to coworkers.  Not that I didn't get it in return-as trust me, everyone knows I'm the first to say "my patients do more for me than I could ever do for them."  And that's the honest to God truth.  Each day my patients have, and continue to each me the importance of each day.  And not that I'm the best at what I do, I just genuinely love my job and helping others.

In the past you may have read posts where  I was disappointed I was never put first, or for that matter, second or third.  That I was lied to, cheated on, and stolen from.  But gone are those days.  I now know that not only can I live without this person in my life, but I'd rather.  

I believe whatever doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger.  I feel I have learned more in a year that I have in my entire lifetime.  And I've realized I don't need anyone to take care of me or lead me to happiness.  There's only one person that can do that, and it's me.  I thought I needed my mom to wipe my tears, a friend to make me laugh, and a guy to grab me a glass of wine.  Well, I can grab a freakin' tissue and wipe my own tears, I find at least one thing (if not 100 things) that make me laugh each day, and damn do I know how to pour myself a nice glass of wine!

Trust me, I love being in love.  I love butterflies in the stomach, love notes, emails, phone messages, the smells, tastes, and sounds of it all.  But who knows, the next relationship I'm in might last a lifetime.  So, for now, I'm want to seize this time I have alone, to reinvent and better myself how I've always imagined.  I'm going to embrace this time and spend it selfishly.  I get to start all over.  How many people are lucky enough to do that?!

So, here's my chance to start over. 

I want to rise above all, just as these girls did when they got divorced..




So, my take care of me plan involves a new fall wardrobe, many mani/pedi's and a new car!  OK, ok, I'll try to slip in some running in there, too.  ;)

Thank you all for your love and support to get me to this very day.  Now, it's time to relax, and sign my name with a big, huge smile!  

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7 comments:

  1. Good Luck to you. I'm sure you've heard "things happen for a reason" and "what goes around comes around". I truly believe both of those things are true and you will be much better off in the near future.
    All good wishes,
    Gina

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  2. LOVE that post Hollywood- so proud of you XO

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  3. I meant to say you are already better off... =>

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  4. Laur--this is such an inspiring post! Taking this time for yourself is the most important part of preparing yourself for a future relationship! Enjoy!

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  5. Laur, sounds like you have the right attitude to start the next phase of your life. You are a beautiful lady, and someday if it is meant to be you will find that one person that will make your life complete. You will be stronger and ready to accept that kind of love in your life.
    Remember, we are all here to help you through the happy and sad times.

    Susan

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  6. A very inspiring post. And you deserve all the happiness in the world.

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